Word of the Day

My word today is:

Provision

I'm waiting to hear about a job I applied for. I was told they would probably get back to me at the end of the week. I consider that today. It's something we've been praying for since I quit my other job...to find a job that I can do from home that I will actually enjoy and that doesn't involve other people's kids or lots of phone time. This one would be perfect.

Now, on one hand it would be more hours than I had planned on. I may have to work some evenings or a few hours on a Saturday to get all the work done for the week. But here is the thing...it would kill our debt. Like, throw it back into the oblivion from whence it came. Like, light at the end of the tunnel. Like, Mel Gibson yelling "FREEEEEDOM" in Braveheart.

So this week I've been praying. And today, I'm a bit on edge. I think and live in the realistic world. You'd think I'd know better after everything I've seen and experienced, but that is me, the realist. And in the natural, I have to have this job. It has to be the answer to the prayers. It just makes sense.

But what if it isn't? The decision is out of my hands. They know I'm interested. We interviewed over the phone. I tried to be me, be real, be professional...whatever it is one is supposed to be in an interview. But ultimately I know that God has already determined if this job is to be mine. And then I start to get scared. I start to freak. I know a lot of people think talking about ones financial state is inappropriate so sorry if this is offensive. But in my realistic mind, when I look at where we are at, I NEED this job. We have to start making some holes in this debt. ASAP.

So where does provision come in? I know that God provides. That He promises to provide for our needs, that there are many promises in the Bible about provision. But do they apply to debt? Do they apply to this situation or are we going to spend the next 10 years renting little houses and not being able to visit my family in Idaho? Granted, some of the debt is our own fault, but the large majority of it was situations out of our control.

And so today I put it out there. Provision Lord; I trust that you will provide for this growing family. That You see where we are, You see our hearts, You see.

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink;

or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than

food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air;

they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly

Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things

will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,

for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:25-27, 33-34